But I didn’t.
Dreaming for the impossible.
But I didn’t.
Dreaming for the impossible.
I like you. I like you because you are you. I can’t give any reason for liking you except I like you. I still like you. Or maybe I still love you. Five years has passed since then but I still can’t bring myself to forget you. To stop loving you.
Tell me. What should I do? What am I supposed to do?
Back then I have always thought this feeling would eventually disappeared. I have always thought this heart can be mended. I have always thought this sweet nightmare will ended.
Sometimes I imagined my life with you. A bittersweet dream, or rather a fantasy. But in all my dreams, I was unhappy. I was in agony, because you loved lesser than me. But the worst part was in the reality; you never have the same feeling, of loving me.
Too much love is not a good amount.
A friend once said, the barrier wasn’t there at the first place, between liking and loving. That is the reason things never settled ever since. My heart never found the much needed shred of peace.
The reason I’m writing this is the same as five years ago. I never wanted anything in return. It is just enough for me to tell you how I feel. Never feel burdened by this as I have long realized your love is beyond my reach.
All I want is for you to be happy. No matter with whom you will stand with. If we ever crossed our path in the future, I hope you will never recognized me.
Take care and live well, S
Her fingers stopped before pressing the next key. Her hand slowly moved to the ‘Delete’ key, pressing it a couple of times. She moved the cursor and hit ‘Delete Draft’.
She stared at him. He was standing by the pillar, holding a denture on his right hand and the trimmer on the other. The piercing sound of the trimmer filled the clinic. Helping a junior student perhaps, she thought to herself.
It took her back in time when her parents told her about high school during their time. There were a lot of young, single, both male and female teachers. Some of them were so popular among the students, having tonnes of admirers. Many of them ended up marrying their own student(after they finished high school of course).
She found it somehow amusing when she remembered her own high school days. Literally none of the male teachers are single. She didn’t even had any crush on the teachers, because all of them were old and married.
She looked at him again. He walked to the patient, denture on his right hand, wearing his usual smile.
She smiled, and continued reading.
It was around the 900th day when she-monkey finally got in touch with she-monkey regularly. That was after she bought a new The Brick That Can’t Kill Dogs. The new brick was slimmer, lighter and equipped with high technology too! She-monkey used both Whats application and Vi number as a mean to connect with monkeys around the world. But actually, she-monkey preferred Vi number over Whats application eventhough the later is more famous and widely used than the former. Vi number has cute stickers, and she-monkey loves stickers.
Both she-monkeys were busy with schools. But once in a month or two, regularly, she-monkeys will texted each other, updating about life or new stories about crushes or simply saying hi because they missed each other.
One day, she-monkey asked she-monkey to buy her a Board With Black And White Keys (BWBAWK) because the BWBAWK is relatively cheaper in Hanuman Nation compared to in their homeland. Apparently, she-monkey has started learning to play BWBAWK and she-monkey wanted to buy one because, well, she wants one. Until today, she-monkey still wondered if her friend still plays BWBAWK; she-monkey often forget to ask.
Anyway, after about 1000 days being apart, she-monkeys met during the end of the year holiday. She-monkey went back to the motherland for the holiday, and she-monkey visited she-monkey at The Northern Point of The Southern Territory. The reason for the visit was because she-monkey couldn’t deliver BWBAWK via post because of its bulky size; the cost would be too high. So, she-monkey came to pick up instead.
She-monkey is very happy to finally see the dear friend after so long. It is actually hard to meet during those times because she-monkeys live far apart even in the homeland. Believe it or not, BWBAWK is actually the reason that brought them together after a thousand days.
Around 365 days before this story is written, she-monkey finally moved to The Central. So, whenever she-monkey came back for holiday and is around The Central, they will try to arrange a meeting; it usually ended as failure mainly due to time constraint and transportation problem(she-monkey of The Northern Point of The Southern Territory has license but can’t drive).
Eventhough she-monkeys rarely had chance to meet, she-monkey realized that she is lucky to have she-monkey as friend. A loyal, fun and nonjudgmental friend. She-monkey is the only friend(there was another friend but more on that later) that she-monkey can be completely comfortable with, baring weaknesses and flaws, showing the hidden side of personality. In short, being her monkey self.
She-monkey hopes this friendship will last a lifetime.
To be continued…
Once upon a time, in a far far away land, there lived three monkeys; a he-monkey and two she-monkeys. They met during their late-teen years in an Orchard of Lore. Due to their similar quirky nature, they fast becoming bestfriends.
Almost every night, they hung out together at the Wise Man Hall, studying, but mostly cracking jokes and bantering. When the Wise Man Hall working hour ended for the day, they proceed to the Orange Fruits Haven, having their late night supper. The day was wrapped with the he-monkey ushered the she-monkeys back to their den.
Like in any books, the blissful days chapter has to come to an end. They have to move on with their life, with the new mission of searching for the Degree of Knowledge. They went on separate ways, a she-monkey travels to the east coast to learn to fuse living tissues and machines; the other she-monkey and he-monkey flew in the Torpedo With Wings to a destination over the sea, the Hanuman Nation. The she-monkey learned to drill the hardest substance in higher apes body while he-monkey learned the Power of Healing.
Due to lack of high technology (Hanuman Nation she-monkey used The Brick That Can Kill Dogs), the she-monkeys rarely in touch with each other during the early years. She-monkey and he-monkeys hung out together especially on end of week day, where they had their breakfast at the Hall of Five Tiny Prawns. There, is where she-monkey learned that bread, cheese and strawberry jam is the best breakfast combo ever. Sometimes they played Captain Ball with other monkeys from their motherland.
After the first 365 days, both she-monkey and he-monkey have to move out from the Nurture Tree. They went in search for a new home and found the Citadel of Ancient Greek Tree on a hill. They live on different branches with he-monkey on the higher branch, the window overlooking the beautiful Erythraean Sea.
Time passed by and for some reason, he-monkey had to leave the nation for good. She-monkey bade he-monkey goodbye at the root of the Citadel of Ancient Greek Tree, watching he-monkey riding a white cab into the sunrise. She-monkey cried so hard later that day, for losing yet another friend.
to be continued…