…is hard. So many things have bothered me. Like a lot. Studies, friendship, relationship, my faith to the organization, old crush, former classmate in highschool, former housemate during college, former schoolmates.
It feels like i’m the only one stuck at this place, in this moment. Being stagnant since the past 5 years. Life is like a wheel, they said. Sometimes you are at the top, sometimes you are down at the bottom.
But for me, it’s a bottomless pit. An endless fall. Without a root for me to grasp, to hold on, to save my dear life. The Alice that has been tricked by The White Rabbit. An Alice without the Wonderland.